To be honest, I’ve been sick of my cycle. Which cycle? Not those women periods of course. But generally, my life.
Aku menyebutnya anomali, because it’s way too… hmmm…abnormal! This is how I picture it….
Problema datang, reseptor sosial alamiah dalam tubuh teraktivasi. Otak mengonsolidasi untuk mencari jalan keluar. “Tell your friends!” said my brain. “But I do not have any of them…err, at least the one I can trust and make me comfort” said my heart (note: this isn’t heart as an vital organ in medicine definition). “What a pity, tell your Mom or Dad then” commanded my brain. “I’d better tell the mirror in my room” I replied soon. “Well, he is your only hope then” “I know, I hope so, I’ll try”. Ditemukan jalan keluar untuk segera berbagi sebelum semua jadi basi. I wait for the chance, it’s not an easy job anyway. Almost of my nights, the waitings cost for tears. I couldn’t stand for it!
When the moment comes, “you’re ready for the talk?” my brain ensured. I nodded, ready for the cure from him. 10 minutes….20 minutes…an hour… 2 hours… “I feel bad, he had much more than me” said my heart crying. “I can’t share this pain now, I can’t show him this weakness”. The days just over rapidly, kamuflase bekerja dengan rapi. But, the pain, (for God sake!), is still exist.
“So, what’s now?” ask my brain grinning. “it’s a cycle, I’ll just wait for the time to come again, let’s hope he won’t consider me as a pshyco” my heart answered. My brain insulted, “You are cursed,girl” “I am”.